Saturday, January 22
Rain DepressionThought of today:
"If I keep the weaknesses of others in my mind, they soon become a part of me"
As I sit watching the rain through my balcony door, all memories down on me, why do I always get depressed when it rains? I kept fooling myself that it's all past and gone, or is it really gone? Why all these "whys" don't leave me alone?
Why amidst my loneness you appear? Why is it so hard to forget? Why didn't you leave a space in my heart for another? Why did you hurt me? Why can't I hate you? Why the last night of us together keeps buzzing in my head? Why did you ask me not to ever leave you? Why our last chant of "la ilaha ila allah, Mohamad rasoul allah" did not reunite us? Why are you back now? Why can't I go back now? Why do I keep torturing myself? Why do I miss you so much? Why am I writing this? Why ..
Fire-Breathing Dragon in My Brain, by Julie Seyler
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From::Kuwait
I AM WHO I AM AS I ARRIVE AT YOUR DOOR WHETHER I COME OR I GO IS NOT UP TO ME FOR I HAVE LOST SIGHT OF ALL DESIRE "Walled Garden of Truth",Hakim Sanai
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20 Comments:
What is about the la ilah ella allah thing?
I'm hallucinating Purg
الجواب
لأننا بشر
نعم رباب ... حتى وإن ارتدينا رداء الحكمة وإزار المنطق
يظل في داخلنا طفل صغير يرفض التمنطق...لذا لاتوجهي أسئلة لمشاعرك فقط استجيبي لها وأعذري نفسك
In truth, the rain brings out our innermost longings - a desire for something long lost, gone, or not ours anymore. Enjoy those feelings Rabab.
Patricia , ولاّدة بنت المستكفي , Jewaira
Thanx buddies for the support, but as you said we are humans, and no matter how much we try to escape the past and try to go on with our lives, it's just that eerie times when all come down at once and we get this longing to a special one. I usually don't like to burden others with my glooms and try as much as I can to bring the smiles on others face coz I know for sure that others have their share as well. I don't know why, but when I wrote this it actually was a bit of a relief.
Problem is; I can't think of anything to post and my mind is in a complete chaos.
Nasal,
Ohhhhh thank you, I think I need a shoulder to cry on once and a while
Practical
Stoned? Minain ya 7asra,
If I could get stoned I wouldn’t even contemplate the "whys"
But stay around buddy, more photos to stone you ;),
welcome
1- I love the painting
2- I love the rain
3- I am sorry 4 acting selfish and thinking abt my problems only and seeing beyond.. I am here 4 you.
4- nothing is worth it (easier said than done
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Honey don't be depressed, although I totally can relate how the rain could be depressing, I never was/will one of those people who dances in the rain...it brings out a lot of sad memories bas please cheer up honey and think of the sunny days ahead :*
Rabab you can come get stoned with me anytime! I have the Devine Comedy at home and we can get down to it, really lol
أتعلمين أي حزن يبعث المطر؟
وكيف تنشج المزاريب إذا انهمر؟
وكيف يشعر الوحيد فيه بالضياع؟
mosan mosan
1- I can see why you loved the painting ;)
2- I love the rain when I'm cuddled up with my sweetie.
3- Love is never to say you're sorry, remember? I know sweetie, you always were
4- You're worth it :)
Jelly Belly
J Bunny, I promise I won't get depressed more often, inti bas tamneeni 3alaich.
DJ
I'll try to remind myself that, thanx sweetie for the tip.
Beatnik
You made me an offer I can not refuse, name the place and time ;)
مبتدئ
Your haircut 3ala'll moda song did help a lot buddy, nice poem, actually summarized all my post, brilliant :)
lat
Welcome, and sorry you had to stumble on one of my irregular posts. And ah, honestly, I do not give in to my "whys" often, thanks god for that, I think it's just some circumstances that gather together and the sense of longing to a certain person just invades you.
Jewaira
I did not get it at first when you said enjoy it, I guess it's because of the state of mind I was in, hey girl, that is enjoyable in a way, like the better sweet type a thing, thanx
Better = bitter
I love u ;) may I budge into ur heart and take a lil space for myself? I won't take much room I promice ;)
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Peach
Sorry dear my heart is pre-occupied, LOL, no sweetie you have your own space there that no body can invade, only in a different location ;)
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Good enough for me ;) I'll hold my little space proudly and with love ;)
yes yes we should meet one day. I will have to email you. otherwise I could be jailed for my offer if I say anything about it anymore on your blog! soon soon I hope. am a little lazy and my circumstances are horrible when it comes to meeting poeple and friends. semi-caged I am. no wonder am stoned sometimes. forgive me if am slow in everything.
Beatnik
My dear lawyer to be, take your time honey, no need to rush things ;)
A Lawyer on Canabbis shame on me! ba3deen meen sa7i la kul hal mashakel no? yidrabu uph
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