It is really hard to give up on something or someone we are so used to. For more than a month I’ve been struggling with blogspot. All I wanted is some more organization to be able to categorize my posts. I transferred to beta for that reason but unfortunately; not only I wasn’t able to do that, I was also faced with trail of other problems. I guess holding on to what is dear to us is not worth it when that thing keeps agonizing us. That goes to people too. Some of whom I have been patient with more than six years Therefore I decided to move to Wordpress, and to move on with my life on other accounts. Wordpress doesn’t deal with beta version as of yet, and as a result I can’t transfer my old posts ( they promised to do that in the near future). But regardless of that, I’m so disappointed with blogspot that I don’t really give a damn. I have decided as of today to start a new beginning, discarding all what bothered me in the past, no more Ms. Nice. And so I declare: Bye bye blogspot, bye bye selfish ignorant people….. Life is much more worth spending on my own happiness, than waiting for a miracle to change my situation. Fellow bloggers, my dear cyber companions in good times and bad; please visit the new me on The Ultimate, if the link dosn't work try www.3asal.wordpress.com and have a love break…..see you there.
An Update I just realized it’s my second year with blogspot, the nasty troublesome kid LOL
Posted by AyyA:: at :: 12:59 PM::
Thursday, September 14
He: Ask me to nourish you with passion till eternity In mortal terms And beyond immortality Allow me to pave your pavement With riches of roses from robust estates Merciful to your fragile tread Accept the ample services Of a humble slave at your door Begging for your forgiveness Please; reign the jewel-studded peacock throne Of this extravagant heart And be its sole queen
But don’t ask me to leave I beg you This decision is not mine to take The oath was made by destiny You are my everything And I can’t stop Loving you
She: Sufferings of one lifetime surpassed eternity And suspended my mortal being for years Leaving nothing for immortality Your thorns bled the sole of my essence Whirling my path through a whirlwind Into a lost continent cursed with drought Where your ample services seized All what I have and swapped my identity To that of a beggar at your door Estranged in your lavish palaces Sad and empty in Solitary confinement
Set me free I beg you One mistake cost me a lifetime And contrived my destiny I’m left with nothing And your love is Su ffo ca ting Me
Katkoot is one year old today; my son brought her to me when he was traveling so I would take care of her while he’s gone. She was barely 3 months old at that time. I was a bit nervous at first since I’m not a cat person and don’t know how to deal with them. But by the time my son was back, Katkoot became my constant companion that I couldn’t do without. Here is a poem I wrote about our first encounter:
The glistening iris kept dancing Wondering who I was Knowing what's on her mind, I had to be patient Not to break her fragility After all, like me she was in a strange mansion Of different possibilities
I left her alone to explore my hospitality She cautiously tiptoed until she faced me Meowing, purring Entwining her gaze with mine, a thread
Of hazel sunshine voyaged me along the bay Of reminiscent far away shores Where I watched sunset Surrounding my image in his iris And vowed to reside there forever
But that was long ago And there was no forever
Now what kind of trick heaven was playing? The new kitten and I both reflected and eased
The banging of construction workers next door did not distract us Neither did the pains of the past
Two broken hearted, deprived One from mother, one from lover Now were united and eyes talked Refuge, although lips never moved
I smiled as she lingered Between my open arms And I whispered "You’re not alone"
Dedicated to the souls of the martyrs of the WTC on Tue. Sep.11,2001
I'm distraught with terrorism Being of my race is a dire shame Mixing flesh with steal and flame On behalf of Allah’s name
The God I’ve known is mercy Directing the "lost in course" But it is an act of hearsay To spread faith with devil’s force!
How dare they ruin my reputation How could they distroy great men's deeds It takes a second to demolish a nation That took generations’ sweat and heed
Make no mistake, the infamy's mine It’s my heard that has been boomed Be it now or after time Barbarism shall be doomed
I sadly grieve the innocent souls The prey of pusillanimity But twin towers shall always stay The emblem of liberty In spite of their cowardice In spite of their cruelty
Certainly infidelity To God’s endless civility
PS; I wrote this poem right after the 9/11 terrorist attack on the twin towers; I looked for it in my archives for two days and could not find it. Then I remembered publishing it on the Net on one of poetry sites and luckily; it was there. My original intention was to post it yesterday; but better late than never.
Posted by AyyA:: at :: 3:45 PM::
It is amazing how a ministry can go to a lengthy detailed report that has a lot of vocabulary yet expresses nothing but its role as a prey. In this report that was presented to the Council of Ministers and published in tow pages of Algabas newspaper I could only get these points:
1-It’s not the ministry’s fault; it’s the consumer’s fault for being not energy conservative.
2-It is also consumer’s fault for not paying his bills.
3-Blame it on government policy for fixing the sale rate to be less than the operational cost, although oil prices are constantly increasing.
4-We don’t have qualified personnel; give the work to private sector.
5-Government bureaucracy (mentioned in detail in this point ) in dealing with projects, therefore; the ministry is asking for more leniency in dealing with URGENT PROJECTS (was mentioned only briefly).
6-Using other resources for energy like natural gas and treated waters, or undersurface water.
Now let’s go over these points one by one:
Although the first point was repeated many time, but this is not always the case. With modern day technology people’s dependence on electricity increases, and that should have been included in the long term planning. Campaigns for energy conservations had been in effect more than a decade, but that did not prevent energy shortage.
As for the second point; needless to remind the Ministry that its personnel never went to check meters in the past, even when consumers asked them to do that and were willing to pay, they sent them home! Some meters were even broken and no one knew about it, now whose fault is that? Shouldn’t the ministry exert more control over its personnel?
As for number three; I say take your hands off. Find an alternative to bring down the cost and there are so many, but don’t increase the payment on the consumer.
I agree with number four completely.
As for the fifth point; why ask for leniency for urgent matters only; solve the problem, once and for all, for all the projects by reducing governmental liaison time need in all stages of the project. There are many committees with studies that were done in the past, use them. Because otherwise you will always be dealing with urgent matters, and this is mismanagement.
I agree with the sixth point completely and I’m surprised at how much money we have already lost by wasting natural gas and not using the treated water that cost the government a fortune to build its plants.
And the most important question to all service ministries: where is the liaisons between these ministries? Why one ministry digs a tunnel in an area for its services and rebuilds it to come another ministry right after that and dig the same tunnel for other types of services? Isn’t this considered overburdening governmental budget?
P.S. : I’m even more pissed off today; I woke up this morning with a sty in my right eye :(
Posted by AyyA:: at :: 2:37 PM::
Monday, September 4
I’m so Pissed Off
I migrated to beta version of blogspot two days ago to be able to organize my posts via tags. Unfortunately; I found out that I have to change my layout which I do not want to do. But it’s too late now. Another problem is not being able to comment on other blogs who did not switch to beta, nor can others comment on my blog. Luckily this will be solved soon as blogspot promised. As for now I enabled my anonymous comment and started another blog with the name 3asal just for commenting on others until this problem is solved.
How deep do you think In a rabbit hole one goes In search of true love?
Posted by AyyA:: at :: 10:23 AM::
Sunday, September 3
Energy Shortage in my Opinion
You can fool anyone with almost any profession except; Engineering and Medicine. With these two professions any slight mistake is a disaster. After liberation I thought that our governmental system was heading downward exponentially, unfortunately; it had proved overtime that it is diving head-first down. So many factors affecting electricity and water shortages in the country that money can’t buy. It’s seems like a big puzzle to most of us that a country as small and rich as Kuwait with comparatively low population rate per area should be suffering from the basic services like electricity and water. But if we analyze the system objectively, we would come to an understanding that this situation was inevitable and what is yet to come is even worse. And because this subject is lengthy and complicated, the real cause of the shortage is often overlooked. In this post I concentrated on the main issues, or the major problems that directed the whole country to this fate. Let’s start with the annual budget distribution as allocated for expenditures in the state of Kuwait in the year 2005/2006: Finance minister Mr. Bader Akhumadi stated in an interview with Alrai Alam newspaper the following:
الباب الأول في المصروفات يخص المرتبات حيث بلغت اعتمادات هذا الباب 1943 مليون دينار والتي تشكل نحو 26,9 في المئة من اجمالي تقديرات المصروفات الباب الثالث من المصروفات وسائل النقل والمعدات والتجهيزات، حيث بلغت اعتمادات هذا الباب لهذه السنة 90 مليون دينار كويتي وتشكل 1,2 في المئة من اجمالي تقديرات المصروفات الباب الرابع والخاص بالمشاريع الانشائية والصيانة والاستملاكات العامة، فقد بلغت اعتمادات هذا الباب نحو 940 مليون دينار وتمثل 13 في المئة من اجمالي تقديرات المصروفات As we see from these statements that a huge bulk of the budget (26.9%) is spent on employee’s salaries and their accomodation (1.2%), even more than what is allocated for execution and maintenance of construction projects (13%). And that takes us to the policy of employment in Kuwait. In broad lines; the government of Kuwait is supposedly responsible to find jobs for every adult Kuwaiti citizen. Most of the ambitious and qualified citizens would turn to private sectors, the rest apply to Service Berue ( Diwan Elkhidmah Elmadaniyah) and await for months to get assigned to a ministry. Service Berue usually gets the required qualifications from the ministries ahead of time. And according to these requirements, it distributes the applicants. But since there is no PLAN TO LINK THE OUTPUT OF EDUCATION TO THE ACTUAL DEMAND OF THE MARKET, most of the times ministries do not get the required qualifications and ends up with employees that hardly have any qualifications, when it actually suffers from the lack of specific expertise, and the Service Berue asks the ministries to create jobs for them, especially when the applicant waits a long time to get a job, in other words; it tells them ”itsarifow”. This created many problems especially in the service ministries (I will come to this point later); these employees would not get the jobs they sought, and most of them end up without any real work. Some would not even have an office to attend to. Other than having to pay them fixed salaries and accommodate them which adds expenditure to the budget. This in addition to other endless problems that this policy causes; Check Audit Berue’s report about auditing deficiencies in the ministries which applies to all other aspects and professions in almost all ministries and government sectors. Now let’s look at another factor which I will call government bureaucracy in dealing with construction projects: 1- Project planning: although mid-term planning (5 years) is done by each ministry ( elkhi6a elkhamsiyah), no one is paying attention to these plans because they are too busy with other urgent issues that impose priority each year, one of which is the delay of the current projects which will be discussed in detail hereafter. 2- This is the minimum time flowchart of any government contract: Preparation of specifications, 3 weeks Approvals from other concerned ministries and government sectors; 6 weeks Approval from CTC (Central Tendering Committee); 4 weeks Tendering; 6 weeks Receiving offers and evaluation; 6 weeks CTC approval; 4 weeks Preparation of contract binding and signature; 2 weeks A total of 31 weeks which is roughly equal to 8 months and that’s just to sign the contract and start the project! This chart does not even include none-working days or low productivity months like Ramadan. In practice it usually takes about a year provided you have hard working, qualified personnel. Several attempts were made to shorten this period but to no use. This system was applied to the state of Kuwait before liberation and still is with no enhancement, although it has many problems of which a repeating one is; not being able to sign the contract on time and therefore losing the budget of that year and having to repeat the whole process, sometimes with new specifications the year after. The result: a whole delay in the project to another fiscal year. As well as transferring some of other project in the five year plan to a later date. 3- After liberation many professionals like Palestinians and others left Kuwait, others were discharged. This left a void in many professions especially in engineering areas that needed qualified personnel. The only option was to use mostly inexperienced Kuwaiti working force, like fresh graduates. These Kuwaitis were under the mercy of the knowledgeable contractors while they were supposed to be supervising their work. And therefore; problems like variation orders increased and projects delayed, projecting its effect on the mid-term planning and the long term planning. 4- Add to that personal benefits( not always): assigning the job to a specific contractor as ordered by higher management has to go the official way. Hence comes the clash between the working team and management (sometime the minister, most of the times the undersecretary), the team here have to, by hook or crock, reject the lowest bets which fully comply with the specs. to be able to promote the specified contractor. This is not always an easy job for the team, CTC have their own professionals, and that causes another delay, if not rejecting the project all together. And here I did not mention this point as a norm, but that does not mean that it does not happen. The above was just an example of the legal process needed in any project no matter how small. Bigger projects have other factors to be considered. Now you can imagine how long it would take to build a new power plant or station.
Project delay also has its effect on the budget; the amount allocated for the budget expenditure each year is not transferable to the year after except under very strict conditions. This means that when a ministry does not use the money properly, it had deprived other ministries of that money. And usually the surplus is divided between the employees as end of the year bonuses, all management levels are included (the highest gets the most) and some selected employees if there is enough. Most of the time; people who get these bonuses do not deserve it.
One way to overcome the complication of the procedures needed to launch a big construction project (involves many relating processes) is to divide it into fragments of smaller projects as was mentioned by the ex-Assistant Undersecretary for water projects Mr. Abdullah Alrejaib in an interview with Algabas on Sep.2, 2006. This may take the pressure off the ministry for the short term and solve the problem with the allocated budget. But it also means that the execution of a single project would take several annual years. And a project that may take 3 years to finish might take 12 years and more, if we consider the contracting procedures mentioned above. Hence; THERE IS NO PLAN TO LINK THE SERVICES TO POPULATION INCREASE.
And on that respect you can measure other ministries. What we citizens are experiencing today is the result of years of governmental bureaucracy and mismanagement which will not be solved unless there is a big shake in the whole system
Posted by AyyA:: at :: 3:04 PM::
Friday, September 1
The A/C is cold and careless The quilt is soft and warm Her limbs are cold and folding In spite of the pampered torso, against his warmth
Half asleep half dreaming Verily reposing yet vigilant Goosebumps creeping around Each move of the contact point
Just a flick and it all started East with West united For the undulating feast Body-to-body tease
Serine, monotonous rhythms Bit by bit, picking up tone to a wild cry As the smell of the night-before filled the air And the dream became wetted reality
Sedated in lasting pleasures She takes a side of the king-size bed And drifts back to tranquility Regardless of her wet body, of the hot covers